It has been two days since bestie's gone. Life is so dull. The ambiance isn't the same anymore. Nobody to irritate me. Nobody to irritate. Nobody to eat with. Oh god. I'm so emotional.

Went out with the family yesterday as it was Papa's birthday. He's getting old. And he reminds me that i'm getting old too. Oh no, i don't want my age to turn another year. I just want to stay as i am. Oh wells. We can't do anything about it can we?

It wasn't like what i expected. Anyway i didn't even expect anything. The only people who talked to me was my parents. It was those awkward moments i've experienced. It only got worse when they talked animatedly leaving me clueless about the whole subject and i was left to entertain my dear self with multiple injuries in my heart. Yes. I admit i'm hurt. Hurt that i'm still not wholly accepted like i though i would. Nevertheless i didn't wry. Life just has to be high on pretense.

Yesterday was also Mirna's (Fina's elder sister) engagement. I'd like to apologise for not attending the engagement ceremony as i was with the family. If i had a choice, i'd go for the engagement but since i didn't want to make the already sour relationship with my family more sour-ish, i opt for the first. Congratulations anyway for the successful engagement. Hope you'll last long with him and hopefully i get to see you guys getting married. Hmm, i'm not good with well-wishing so i prolly stop here.

Okay, that's all.
Baby,top. || 12:27 PM